Monday, April 17, 2006
Today has been a very difficult day for me. It is hard to believe another year has gone by since I lost my darling Bo. I still think of him daily and sometimes I still can feel him with me. I visited the cemetery and talked with him for a while and then I went to visit my Mom and Dad's gravesite. Next week will also be the anniversary of my Dad's death and it is even harder to believe that it has been 21 years since we lost him. Everywhere I look I see the sites of those who have left me and I really feel so alone. First Daddy, then my younger brother Gerald, Bo, Mom and many other family members and friends. My brother, David is estranged from me (his choice--not mine!) and that leaves only Jason and me. And now I worry about Jason--what will he do when I am gone. I really wish he could find a wonderful woman and settle down. Although I love my step grands to death I really would love to have grandbabies of my own.